Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Kisses from Heaven

Merry Christmas!  I hope your day is filled with merry and bright, love and laughter and boundless joy.

Living in New England, we like a white Christmas.  It was nice to wake this morning to softly falling snow and dusting of fluffy white snow on the ground.  Not quite all white, but enough.

I like snow.  From the inside of my house.  Preferably snuggled up with a blanket and a cup of hot tea.  I love to watch it fall.  I love the pristine whiteness of the landscape. I love watching the birds, so colorful and playful in the snow. I do not like it so much when I have to drive in it, of course.

So this morning, in the early morning hours, I went to visit Meg's special place.  I brought her some flowers for Christmas. I thanked Santa for being there for/with her (the gentleman buried across from her has a Santa etched on his stone!)  It was so quiet.  So peaceful.  So still.  I closed my eyes.  You could hear the birds singing their morning song.  You could smell the winter air.  The slight breeze was cold against my cheek as it was only 24 degrees.  It was a lovely connection with nature.  I could almost hear the snow softly falling.  As the soft fluffy snowflakes mixed with my silent hot tears, I smiled.

Kisses from Heaven.  Soft.  Gentle.  Pure. Loving.  Abundant.

You see, I've never thought of snow in quite the same way as I have since Meg died.  The day before her wake we had a big snowstorm.  I remember two distinct things about it.  I remember it began the night before and I went for a walk in the snow.  I remember looking up to the sky and feeling the cold, wet flakes hit my cheeks and mix with tears.  I remember having an epiphany of sorts, that the snowflakes were as close to kisses from Heaven as I could get.  It brought me comfort then.  It does to this day.  It was a gift.  A soft blanket across the land.  To insulate.  To bring peace and pureness of light.  To force us to pause and connect with nature.  I remember the next day, going outside with the boys to play in the snow.  We made snow angels, of course.

Now, every time it snows and especially at Christmas time, I am filled with gratitude that I have another opportunity to receive kisses from Heaven.  I hope you got some, too!

If not, I hear we'll have a few more chances in the coming week.  I'll be outside soaking up my kisses and making some snow angels.  Will you?

Peace and joy to you and yours this day and always.

8 comments:

  1. Kisses from heaven - beautiful and sweet. Truly abundant and needed. Know that I'll be running around my house with my screw driver anchoring things today after reading your story.

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  2. I love this. Thank you for the timely reminder for child safety. Thank you for sharing your story.

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  3. I am moved to tears as I read your past few posts, I have fortunately not lost a child, but I have lost a loved one and can relate and remember the immediate pain, the feeling that spreads, tingles and aches through out your body. A friend's wife wrote the most beautiful song for her father when he passed and I have found my own comfort in it. It's beautiful and has the a calmness to it that is so relatable. Thought I would share it with you http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pBg9btpGqKU

    Bless you and your family in your new year.

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    1. Mindy,

      Thank you so much for your message and for sharing that absolutely beautiful song! Please tell your friend I am grateful that you led me to her video. I shared it on my personal Facebook page and purchased the mp3.

      Peace,
      Kim

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  4. Beautiful comforting way of nature to receive kisses. May it always be abundant for you. Meggie is your angel.

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  5. I'm not sure how I stumbled on your blog today - but I just finished reading your story about your beautiful angel. I cried out loud, reading every word. And then I had to go hug my own - although my children are 14 and 10, my heart broke for you. You are an amazing women and I just wanted to tell you that, and send you a virtual hug.

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  6. Kim, I have written you an apparently too long of a blog to publish here, and I don't have any idea how to get your email to be able to email you all I have to tell you. Apparently it only accepts 4,096 characters, which I don't understand, because when I put it on Microsoft Word, it says I only have 1322 words, which probably means characters means spaces too. So I would like to share my thoughts and comments with you about the grief that you are dealing with, but can't decide which part to leave out, because its all important stuff that you need to read. So if you read this blog, please contact me through my Gmail account at glorrieb1, so I can email you my blog. Thank you in advance, and I give my best love and prayers to you and your family.
    Lorrie Barnosky

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    1. Hi Lorrie,

      I couldn't reach your gmail for some reason. You can mail me at info@meghanshope.org
      Kim

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